My stepdad started molesting and grooming me around age four until I was fourteen almost fifteen. He’s cunning, conventionally attractive, and manipulative making him the perfect abuser. I recently came out to my entire family and while some of them belive me my closest family meaning my mom and brother do not and we haven’t spoken in almost a year. I was only seventeen and i made a choice that caused me to loose my mother, she’s essentially dead to me and i can not help but think i should have done more or just nothing at all.
There isn’t sway to describe what going through that type of mental torture does to a persons brain and my best advice would be to seek professional help and never let anyone invalidate your feeling and traumas to try and tell you how to feel and cope.