I was at a friend’s birthday party, and his parents were allowing underage drinking. A guy “flirted” with me by offering me a lot of weed and alcohol. He left the party, but then came back and told me to meet him out front. I thought we were just going to kiss but he slammed my head up against my friend’s garage and I lost consciousness. I gained consciousness again as he pulled out of me and my mom pulled in the driveway to take me home. He told me the next day he might’ve finished inside me and that I needed to get Plan B. My friends who were at the party did not believe me that this happened, and said that I was so drunk that I probably said yes and didn’t remember. I still can’t have sex without crying, and orgasming is extremely hard to do on my own. It doesn’t happen with a partner.
How did this make you feel? What would you say to someone who has been through the same thing?
It made me feel scared, unsafe, untrusting, and I have so much emotional and physical trouble having sex. If you have gone through this, go to a sex therapist to help discover your sexuality again and move past your trauma. Also, remove anyone from your life who doesn’t believe you or blames you for the assault.
