when i was a young child i was assaulted by two people in my life and it left me with ptsd, i told my ex boyfriend what happened in detail before we got together and how it messed me up, still he would pressure me into sexual acts i didn’t want to do as the relationship progressed.
this made me feel worthless and used and hurt, i mean how could someone that “cared” about me so much go and do that to me? to be honest i don’t know and i don’t think i ever will, but i want to tell others in similar situations that you don’t deserve it and sexual acts are not the only thing you are good for, you are an amazing complex human and you are worth so much more than what ignorant people try to use you for and it’s not your fault that they try, and it’s not your fault it happened
